For so long I was looking for a label, something I could call myself that everyone would understand. I played with Clairvoyant and psychic but for some reason these only stuck in my throat. I had heard of the word Empath (I am a fan of Charmed afterall) but thought that I must be more than that as everyone can be empathic!! Uh Huh, that was the problem right there, my ego self firstly wanted a label and secondly needed it to be a special one, if I could of made my own word up I think I would of!! But what I am is just me and a large part of me is empathic, in that I am able to pick up on someones true feelings, no matter if they try to hide behind something else. I have been called a mind reader, a freak, a weirdo and many more I daren’t mention for fear that my father reads this and repromands me for my shocking vocabulary but really, what I’ve leanrt is that it makes no difference I am what I am (breaking out in song!!) Now that I’ve realised this and I’m quite happy with the result I now have another dilema, as far as business go, there’s an expectation to pop yourself in a pigeon hole, for marketing and advertising reasons so where do I put myself. Here’s a brief of what I do on a day to day basis:
Daughter (All of the above could come under carer)
Healer – Reiki and other holisitc treatments
Writer – of blogs and poetry Councillor – with no qualifications
People Reader – Soul reader, chakra reader, tarot reader
Social media networker – like to ‘network’ on FB/Twitter for a large part of the day
and for now that’s all I remember. So if I was wanting to advertise what would I call myself, under what heading would I belong???? Another wee question… When does social turn into business, where are the defined lines and rules?? Does there need to be, is there no such thing as business or pleasure? Can the two be rolled up into one?? I’m beginning to think that they can, they have to even. This is perhaps the point that we working class human beings are missing, we look as work as something which must be endured, we must earn a certain amount by a certain time, but who says that has to be the way? (I know, I know, the bank, your boss, your wife, your hubby, your kids, etc etc) but what if we just decided that enough was enough, lifted the line between business and pleasure and actually enjoyed what we do?? That’s a thought worth pondering……
So back to the empath bit, on occassion I have been told that I have a wonderful ‘gift’, ‘gift’ I say, eyes rolling up to the sky, is picking up on the hurt of another and
feeling like it’s yours a gift, is walking past people arguing in the street and taking on their anger a gift?? I have battled with my emotions all my life, in fact, I’ve been battling with other people’s emotions all my life, unable to watch the news, scary movies as the feelings inside me are so real I’m living their fear. I know it sounds like I’m harping on a bit here and I know I can use my ability to help others but I have struggled so much in the past with where I end and another person begins, merging yourself with another is not only unhealthy but can be downright soul destroying. So why do I do it? I hear you ask. I don’t do it, it’s just there I have however learnt to diffrintirat between what is my emotion and what is anothers. I don’t have to own their ‘stuff’ just because I’m picking up on it, this has helped me to do the work I
choose to do, as it is a choice. To be able to guide people into connecting back with themself is the gift. To see people through their protection barriers and help show them that wonderful person which they may have forgotten is wonderful and with everything in this world there has to be balance, the gift of assisiting others is my Yin, the repsonsibility of living with my ability is the Yang but it is one I am willing to take.
I share my thoughts and feelings with you today as I believe there are many, many more people out there with the abilities in which I have but right now they may not recognise them, still battling with the emotional overwhelming feelings of an empath, there are things you can do, there are tools you can use in order to channel this ability to one that helps you as well as others, if this is something you would like to discuss more, share your thougths on, please feel free to do so.
LoLi (Love & Light)